Hey there old friend!

Hi there blog world! It's been a while. I would love to say I've been super busy doing super fun, super awesome things...but alas, no! Well, actually, that's a bit of a lie. I had a wonderful girls' trip to Olympia and Seattle. It was fun, relaxing, and full of girly girl time that I desperately needed. But since returning, life has been full of working, having the sniffles, and venturing back into the world of single mommy-hood, as the hubby has been working out of town. He comes back tonight, thank you little baby Jesus. I don't have much to say but I do have a really freakin' cute little boy to show you. Sorry for the wonkiness of some of the pictures. Blogger likes to tell me they're upside down when they are not. I swear.

Riding his lawnmower! He says, "ride, ride, ride"! He will also take his toys for rides, what a nice boy!

On his first ride at an arcade. He l o v e, loved it! Again, "more ride Mommy, more,".

Water time at Nani's house. The only thing to do when it's a billion and a half degrees out.

Passed out after a long day with the cousins. He slept from 5:30pm to 5:30am. For him, almost a record. A sleeper Hudson is not, so this was NICE!

One Year Ago Today...

2/23/2012, 2:58pm

Happy 1st Birthday Hudson Wilder Barnes!

An hour from this very minute, 1 year ago today, you were born. I am caught in the memories of the exquisite, pulsing, contractions of labor. I revel in the flashes of breathless exhaustion from hours of straining to see your face, and the glorious stretching as I pushed you into this world. The feel of your warm, wet, tiny body being placed on my chest; the little panting screams that marked your voice; looking up into your father’s eyes, bright with unshed tears; feeding you for the first time from my breast; your pink fingers clutching at mine; your sweet breath whispering as you snuggled into my neck soothed by my voice and the beat of my heart.

These memories warm me…bittersweet and ragged. Beautiful.

The details seem etched in my mind. Every miraculous moment. Sometimes they are foggy, but not today. Today they are clear.

I don’t remember the weather nor do I have any concept of the happenings of the world that day, but your birth, that I remember.

It lights my heart to recall that day. But nothing like the light that you bring to my heart today. The brightness of your eyes, the pureness of your smile, the joy on your face as you yell, “MAMA”.

That is truth to me. Unsullied, unbiased, total truth. I was meant to be your mama. To grow you, birth you, nourish you, raise you, and love you. With the very core of my being.

You are a part of me. Your life is a part of my very soul. For that I am thankful. I am blessed to be your mother.

Happy 1st birthday dear son.

Love,
Your mama

You know you're a good mom when...

You see that your son has spit up some of that oh so precious breast milk he just demanded you feed him and rather than get up to get a rag you just watch the dog lick it off the floor.

Even more awesome than that...watching said vomiting son get mad because the dog licked up the awesome puddle of throw up he wanted to smash his rubber ducky in. Yep folks, I have arrived!

(I really do love my life, for serious!)

Things I've Said

This just happened...

"Gary, please don't turn the baby into a tasty treat for the dog with my breastmilk."

Said as Gary sprinkled breastmilk on the baby so that Belle would lick Hudson's belly.

Seriously?!

Camping Preview

Hey all...went camping this weekend. It was an awesome adventure with my boys and my dogs! I'll post the details later. But for now...here's Hudson rockin it in the tent trailer.



Tell me...what color are those crazy eyes?!?!

XOXO

Where o where?

Where did my itty bitty baby go? Now he's a pulling himself up, camera chasing, big mouth boy! I can swear he's yelling "Mom, stop taking my picture and do something funny!" So I showed him my boobs.

XOXO

Flashback

Day 1 and today (just shy of 7 months later).

XOXO